| And poor Ross is a failure at
everything
"Margaret told me privately this afternoon that when Ross went to
work
this morning, they told him he was firedBecause of hisdrinking, you
seeHe always drank, men always do, but not the way he's been
drinking since Rhett came back to Charleston a year agoRoss was
trying to make the plantation go, he's been slaving away at it ever
since he came back from the War, but something always went wrong,
and
he never did get a decent rice cropEverything was about to be sold
up for taxes
So when Rhett offered to buy the plantation from him, Ross had to let
it
goIt would have been Rhett's anyhow, except that he and his
father-but that's another story"Ross got a position as chanel j12 watches teller at a
bank, but I'm afraid he thought that handling money was vulgar
Gentlemen always signed bills in the old days, or simply gave their
word, and their factors took care of everythingAt any rate, Ross
made mistakes at hiscage, his accounts never balanced, and one day
he
made a big mistake, and he lost hisjobWorse, the bank said they
were
going to law to get the money from him that he'd paid out in errorIt was like a dagger in Ross' heart
The heavy drinking started then, and now it's cost him another job
On top of that, some fool-or villain-let it slip that Rhett had arranged
the job for him in the first placeHe went right home and got so
drunk he could hardly walk"I love Rhett best, may God
forgive chanel watches me, I always haveHe was my first-born, and I laid my heart
in his tiny hands the moment he was put in my armsI love Ross and
Rosemary, but not the way I love Rhett, and I'm afraid they know it
Rosemary thinks it's because he was gone for so long, then came back
like a genie from a bottle and bought me everything in this house,
bought her the pretty frocks she'd been longing for
She doesn't remember what it was like before he went awayShe was
only a baby, she doesn't know that he always came first with me
Ross knows, he knew all the time, but he was first with his father, so
he didn't care overmuchSteven cast Rhett out, made Ross his heir
He
loved Ross, he was proud of himBut now Steven is dead, men's gold gucci watches seven
years
this monthAnd Rhett is home again, and the joy of it fills my life,
and Ross cannot fail to see itButler's voice was hoarse,
ragged from the effort of speaking the heavy secrets of her heartIt
broke, and she wept bitterly"My poor boy, my poor, hurting Ross I
should say something, Scarlett thought, to make her feel betterShe was hurting too much herself"Miss Eleanor, don't
cry," she said ineffectivelyPlease, I need to ask
you somethingButler breathed deeply; she wiped her eyes and
composed her face"What is it, my dear?"
"I have to know," Scarlett said urgently"You've got to tell me
Truly, do I-what he said-do I look like that?" She needed reassurance,
had to have the approval of this loving, lemon-scented fake vintage chanel wallet lady"Precious
child," said Eleanor, "it doesn't matter a tinker's dam what you look
likeRhett loves you, and therefore I love you, too Mother of
God!
She's saying that I look like a whore but it doesn't matterIs she
crazy? Of course it matters, it matters more than anything else in the
worldI want to be a lady, like I was meant to be! She grabbed Mrs
Butler's hands in a desperate grip, not knowing that she was causing
her agonizing pain"Oh, Miss Eleanor, help me! Please, I need you to
help meTell me what you want There was only serenity
and
affection on MrsShe had learned many years before
how to hide any pain she felt"I need to know what I'm doing wrong,
why I don't look like a ladyI am a lady, Miss Eleanor, I chanel classic bags |